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Omgeee, this is digusting. Lmao. Its been ages since I last used tumblr. For some reason, I didnt come use it. LOL. I have been so into something else. Anyway, I freaking got bitched in a online game, and I was not in my right mind, because i didnt bitch her back. And now i am here I vent my fucking anger. So dont read, if you are vulgar free, pure and if you are a retard.

    FUCK YOU. Like seriously, who in the hell world do you think you are? You dont even know me enough to fucking judge me. Wow? Yeah, I am wow, cant handle it? DEAL WITH IT BITCH. Just because your FUCKING avatar looks FUCKING hawt, doesnt mean you look like that in real life. I am betting my entire life that you are a fucktard, a chubbypot and you have back boobs. Plus, you have got attitude problem because you are TOO fat and you have nowhere to vent you anger on. I am just unlucky to have to meet you when your fats were all over your fucktard mind. You know what, fuck it, bitch whore. You took fucking long you reply my damn prick on you. What? Too fat to think? Mhm, you should see a doctor for that..a DIET doctor, or a MENTAL doctor. Choose. If your fats are too oily and the block your ability to think, you know what..GO FOR BOTH cos YOU FUCKING NEED IT!

Okay, I am done. Thats all i have to say c: I feel so much better.

Got it from rachel and meredith :D

Info
[x] I am shorter than 5’4. 
[x] I think I’m ugly 
[x] I tan easily. 
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. 
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I’ve had braces. 
[x] I wear glasses 
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger. 
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents. 
[x] I’ve run away from home.
[x] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I’ve lost a sibling.

School/Work
[x] I’m in school. 
[x] I have a job.
[x] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school. 
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I’ve missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I’ve been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I’ve stolen something from my job.
[ ] I’ve been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I’ve slipped out an “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry. 
[ ] I’ve peed from laughing. 
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[ ] I’ve glued my hand to something. 
[x] I’ve had my pants rip in public. 

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I’ve gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I’ve broken a bone 
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox. 
[ ] I’ve had measles

Traveling
[x] I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day. 
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve been to Canada.
[ ] I’ve been to Mexico
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Japan
[ ] I’ve celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

[ ] I’ve been to Europe.
[ ] I’ve been to Africa.


Experiences
[ ] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city. 
[ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. 
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevador.
[x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[ ] I’ve gone skinny dipping.
[x] I’ve played spin the bottle. 
[x] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[ ] I’ve been Skiing.
[x] I’ve been in a play.
[ ] I’ve met someone in person from myspace. 
[ ] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue. 
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I’ve played chicken.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[x] I’ve eaten sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I’m single 
[ ] I’m in a relationship
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment. 
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher. 
[ ] I am a cuddler. 
[ ] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. 
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test.
[x] I’ve run a red light.
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school.
[x] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[ ] I’ve been in a fist fight.
[x] I’ve been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol. 
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I’ve passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I’ve smoked weed.
[ ] I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
[ ] I’ve eaten mushrooms.
[ ] I’ve popped E.
[ ] I’ve inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I’ve done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I’m depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I’m anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[ ] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I’ve woken up crying. 

Death and Suicide
[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I’ve seen someone dying. 
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide. 
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I’ve planned my own suicide. 
[ ] I’ve attempted suicide.
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player. 
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. 
[ ] I own multiple designer purses.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books. 
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[x] I can sing well. 
[ ] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. 
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs. 
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly 
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I’m a snob about grammar. 
[ ] I am a sports fanatic. 
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat. 
[x] I love Spam 
[x] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day
[ ] I bake well. 
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or black
[ ] I’ve worn pajamas to school. 
[] I like Martha Stewart. 
[x] I know how to shoot a gun 
[x] I am in love with love.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. 
[x] I laugh at my own jokes. 
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts. 
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message
[ ] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A. 
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish. 
[x] I love white chocolate 
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I’m good at remembering names.
[x] I’m good at remembering dates.
[ ]I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

Dear Leeson & Lewin,

     OI! Lmao. Hey guys! YOU ALL SUCKS! Nah, I was just kidding. To be honest, you guys rock :) JIEJIE LOVE YOU BOTH! Laughs. I am soooo glad that you guys were my brothers. You guys are like the best, really ( though you guys are quite a nuisance sometimes.) Laughs.

  To leeson, Thanks bro, for like really caring for me. I know that you really do. You did so much for me although sometimes, i really hated doing things for you, lmao (Gosh, I am soo darn selfish and full of myself.) Lols, thanks for expressing your love for me through the things that you bought for me, but bro, I know you care, you can stop buying all the things that I wanted. USe the money to pamper yourself, come on! At least even if you dun use it for yourself, use it for your tortoise yo. laughs. Thank you bro! Lovesloves.

To lewin, OI! you naughty baby! Go around telling people that you hate me ah?! PUI! hahahs, fine, forgive you for all the nonsense, since you are so young. Laughs. Anyway, I love you okay?! I always bring you out and buy so many things for you lor! Some more, so expensive de lor! You better be grateful to be in future! You must takecare of me for the rest of your life! Learn form your kor kor, love me! LOL!!!!

ANYWAY!!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

Your lovely sister,

Lovel! xD

Dear Mummy & Daddy,

      First of all, thank you for giving birth to me. Thank for always being there and thank you for forgiving me time and time again even thought I can be quite a nuisance sometimes. I know that there are times when i really get on people’s nerves, however, you guys were always there to shelter me; always there to love me.

       Thank God, that you gave me parents to me. I know I am not be an ideal daughter. As the eldest of the family, I am not sensible, I am insensitive to my younger siblings, I am really immature and I am really unreasonable. I know that as a sixteen year old, I might probably just be the childish-est daughter ever! However, you guys never really blame me for being such an unreasonble girl. You guys blame yourselves instead ): Mummy & daddy, dont do that…I know it’s my fault, that I am wrong sometimes. Dont always take the blame for me.

        Mummy & daddy, I am sorry that I was never perfect. I make the same mistakes over and over again. I am quarrelsome and I like accusing people. I know that I have let you guys down so many times before. I remembered when I was such a rebel. I hang out with the wrong company, did all the wrong things. I shamed you guys and mafde you all so darn disappointed. I am so sorry about all the those things that I have done. I know that you guys had already forgiven me, but somehow, there were times when I look in the mirror and reflect on my past behaviour, I would cry and hope that you guys didnt forgive me, because all that I did was so wrong! Whenever you guys dote on me or care for me, I would feel extra guilty ):

     Mummy & daddy, you know, I am really to proud to have you guys as my parents. I love you both and I still need you guys. You guys will always be my parents, no matter what happens. I will never accept anyone else. You guys been through thick and thin with me. God chose you as my parents, and me as your child. I will try harder to be a better daughter I promise! I love you, mummy. I love you, daddy. Please continue to guide me and love me. :)

Your daughter who loves you guys,

LOVEL :D

Dear GD,

       Thanks for being such a wonderful guy. You know, there are many wonderful things about you that you never realised about yourself. It hurts whenever you tell me negative things about yourself when all that you mentioned was what I thought were the best qualities you have. Silly boy, dont and never think that way of yourself. One failure does not mean failure for the rest of your life.

     Thanks for also making me happy. I remembered telling you my problems and things that I am sad about and you just sat there and listened. I never thought that you would do something like that for me. You never know how touched and grateful i felt. I love it, when you bring me up and that you actually trust me. I really do appreciate your trust. You never knew how excited and happy i were when you tell me things, i bet you didnt tell anyone else. You never knew how happy i was whenever you talk to me and tell me things. You never knew how happy i was when you got me things you dont get for other people.

        YOu know, what started out as friendship grew stronger but yet I am afraid to let it flow. To me, you were like that candle at the window; the only light which glows in the dark. I thought I could do this, but i really cant. It all started with that silly game you tried to play with me. For some silly reasons, i agreed to play. Then in the game, you really shouldnt have told me certain things that made my heart goes to you. I really wished i didnt play that game with you, because you made me like you and then you made me confused. You are just so nice to me, and it was really stupid of me to think that what i felt was what YOU felt. When I found out that, to you, treating me so nice and all were just because i was like a really good friend, I was badly stabbed in the heart. Even though nothing really started but honestly, I felt pain cos i really did liked you. I knew for sure that if i asked you who you like, I would get that girl’s name, but for the stupidest reason I went ahead with my heart and asked you. I really shouldnt have because I felt like a total asshole and all. ( Because I knew you like her and yet I let myself butt into this whole thing.)

    You know what, you really deserve a much better girl than me. I know that I have never been anybody’s dream girl, because I have no looks, no figure and I have many flaws in my characters, i bet if you ever found out that i liked you, you probably hate me to the guts. So, I am letting go tonight. Liking you was good, thinking of you were great, but getting to know you and to be your friend instead of an enemy was the best. I cant let go of the best to fight for something good. Just wanted you to know, thanks for being there sometimes and hearing me out. I am so sorry. I liked you dude, I really did. :)

Yours truly,

Lovel.

30 days letter

Day 1 - Your best friend

Day 2 - Your crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Bestfriend, (Applies to all of my besties, who were always there.)

   It’s been such a pleasure knowing you guys. I truly believe, that you guys are always the bestest gifts God ever gave me. I know, there are many things, that I couldnt have done, if you guys werent there for me. Thank you, you guys. I deeply feel grateful you all.

    I loved all the things you guys did for me; times when you guys were there, and times when you all stood by me. I can’t believe how time just flew, it was just like yesterday, when we first met. With a blink of an eye, I cant believe how much we have been through!

I just love everything about you guys!

I love it when, you guys joke around with the stupidest thing in the world! I love it when I am at my lowest point and you guys lift me up again. I love it when you guys wiped my tears. I love it when you guys tell me things that you shouldnt. I love it when you guys helped me through my toughest time. I love it when you guys stood by me. I love it when you guys can take and bear all my nonsense. I love it when you guys forgive me again and again, when I am wrong. I love it when you guys just text/call me without a reason and then we just chatted about anything and everything in the world. I love it when you guys include me in your plans. I love it when you guys tell me about what you want/see in the future. I love it when you guys ask me about my ambitions and plans, then help me/encourage me to achieve them. I love it, when you guys are always around me. I love it when you guys notice the fact that my mood changes sometimes. I love it when you guy ask me “what’s wrong?” then help me overcome my burdens. I love it when you guys lean on me, when you needed help. I love it when you guys let ME lean on all of you. I love it when you guys stood up for me when I get scolded/bullied by some people. I love it when you guys hug me. I love it when you guys just care for me, without needing anything in return. I love it when you guys didnt mind our differences and that you guys accepted my weaknesses and bring me up by always emphasizing on my strengths. Most importantly, I love it the way you guys love me.

I LOVE YOU ALL. I REALLY DO. ♥

Nothing..Nothing, i promise, will ever break/tear us apart.

I ♥ you all.

I wanna do this too :D

30 days letter

Day 1 - Your best friend

Day 2 - Your crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

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hey yaw, pui, didnt come and use tumblr for a few days cause of momo. She just makes me sooooo busy! It’s like my freaking world revolves around her now. I try to be ultra good to her, cause like she has no parents and all and now to her, I am her mummy. Poor baby. Sometimes, when I look at her playing by herself in the house, i feel so sad! I was like “I am so sorry that your parents werent here. I am so sorry that your sibling isnt here too ):” I look at her and tell her that, I will want to be there for her. Treat her the best that I can, but somehow, she dont seem to understand me. I know, she is just a puppy, like she is not even human! But I wanted to understand. Like somehow, she always look so sad ));

     Oh baby momo, dont be sad. Mummy is here to stay. I will love you, care for you and look after you. I will play with you and do all the things you need me to do for you. I am not only your owner, I am your mummy. I love you, baby momo. Please try to understand my love and care.